When I finally decided to defeat my fear of talking to
people, I had to convince myself that no one can give me a hand in this matter.
I would have to aid myself to overcome the inhibitions that leave me speechless
every time I tried to indulge into a social gathering. My family had lost faith
in me that I would ever be a confident person like my siblings were. Even I
would doubt myself if could ever initiate a conversation as my friends do. I had
read numerous books and tried to become a person I always wanted to be.
However, I could not accomplish my goals, but a day arrived when I decided to
use travel to accomplish the feat.
Travel helped me transform my personality in just a few
days. It gave me the poise I always saw in other people. Just by handling life
on my own for a few days gave me the self-reliance I always needed. Yes, there
were times when I would feel anxious on the road since I had taken my first
road trip alone, nonetheless I had no other option but to deal with it.
When I was booking Car Rentals in Kolkata, my hometown, I thought of canceling the trip several
times, but then I would picture the goals I wanted to achieve. I fancied myself
at the places I wanted to see. I recalled the photos of these locations and
told myself that I had to get there, no matter what. After rethinking about
canceling my plans for at least twenty times, I finally booked the car and
packed my bags.
Imagining a better life without anxiety also helped me to
stay firm on my decision. Had I canceled my plans, I would have regretted it
all through my life. I would have always thought about the life I could have
made if I had gone to the hills or the beaches. When I used to think about
things I wanted to do on my vacation, it would help me stay firm on taking a
road trip. The fear of living with guilt became greater than the fear of
talking to people, so I finally ventured on my first solo road trip.
I had also joined a community where I could talk to people
like me who also wanted to come out of their present lives. Such communities
comprise of people who are in the process of recovery. Whenever I would post
something related to my apprehensions, I would get numerous responses to help
me get out of them. Moreover, the folks registered on those communities also
helped me with a couple of tricks that I could use in public places to be more
at peace. At least these communities helped me feel less lonely for a couple of
years.
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